On the cathedral's roof is a desert where I paint
naked on occasion. Sky's roots grow from cloudy objectives
with nimbus nipples. Eyes link to reality with as much of a blur as
memories themselves. Sticky surface gathers sand, under a
shade tree, after a kiss, typical robot tentacles
emerge from my abdomen, causing convulsions.
Rubber lady, why is your hand in the hippopotamus’ eye?
I leaped from up high but was caught by the spider’s web.
The elderly man walking through forest trees is my best friend
explaining the peaceful path to Nara on a white board with
interesting trinkets inside. As the hedge turns red and engulfs me
death becomes another answer to the question of life.
To question life, in the loss of an instinctual fear.
The absence of sight, indicating affection for the moon
feeling female, forever tainted by lust, with cheese between my legs.
And you, with almost vegan seeds, inside
of little bottle cap planter babies. We were
throwing them, stomping them, breaking them in our bare hands
hyperaware of the things that make us human.
Where are the cages of kidnapped giants now?
On the back of the centipede cow; coming over the hill
and passing for some time, as the little drone rests
above my head and playfully licks my hairline.
Mostly in a state of existential crisis, wrapped up in my own mind and in the thoughts that weigh heavy through cyclical depression. Thoughts consisting of anxiety and unhappiness about school, society, humanity, the world, the waste, the ignorance, and my own inner conflicts of knowledge and memory cause constant yearning to exist in a more positive and productive state. My writing through this time has reflected the tendencies I have to think too much, my resolution being through doing art and through connecting with nature. My writing process is usually different every time. Sometimes by compiling small phrases I’ve jotted down in my notes, other times by writing stream of consciousness, and others are more about what word sounds intrigue me. I have found that my writing reads best when I utilize all of these tactics together.